| ... |
[08 Dec 2004|10:36am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 blah |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Pretty in Punk - Fall Out Boy |
] |
( some haikus )
|
|
| Coward No.3 |
[08 Dec 2004|09:53am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 annoyed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Space Between - Dave Matthews Band |
] |
To the owner of 241.285.2451:
Either leave a coherent message, speak coherently when I answer the phone, or stop calling. It's really starting to annoy me. I don't know what your deal is, or why you seem so bent on proving yourself an ignoramus, but you've done it--I definitely believe that you are an ignoramus and a few other things besides. All you will accomplish by continuing in such a fashion as you have been is that I will have your number blocked.
To people I like:
This is the third person to do this to me, and I'm debating getting a new phone number, so I don't have to deal with it anymore. It seems that anytime I check my messages, I have one from some anonymous, cowardly joker that can't seem to confront me to my face or at least allow me to know who they are. I'm sorry they have know life and can't find anything else better to do with their time, but does it really mean they have to be a proverbial thorn in my side?
P.S.
If anyone reading this knows who the owner of that number is, could you contact me and tell me who it is?
|
|
| My Perfect Man.... |
[06 Dec 2004|11:36pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 wistful |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
White Houses - Vanessa Carlton |
] |
I think I've figured what my perfect "type" is...
Ok, does anyone know who Travis Fimmel is? The infamous well-hung Calvin Klein model? Well, this is optional, but I want him to have his body. I want him to have a face like Colin Farrell.
But all that visual stuff is pretty trivial, as long as he's not some sloth, he'll do. Most importantly, I want somebody with a personality very much like Colin Farrell's. I want somebody that is as vulgar, blunt, and mean as I am. I want somebody that will tell me when I'm fucking up, and will do something about it. I want somebody that, when we fight, will yell and scream at me as much as I do at them. I want somebody that will throw me against the wall, give some good, old-fashioned rough sex, and then go out and smoke and drink with me at the club afterwards. I want him to be completely sexually open to anything. If we find a hot guy and want a threesome, he'd go for it.
But he has to be romantic, too. When it's just the two of us, and maybe some close friends, I want him to be able to romance me and caress me. I want to be able to have deep conversations and debates about common interests. And I want to be able to laugh with him.
Basically, I want a bad boy with a soft side.
I know many a guy and girl have searched for this anomaly, and I don't think it's very commonly found. Oh, well.
Oh, and a European accent of some sort wouldn't hurt...
|
|
| Skrod-la-da |
[02 Dec 2004|04:15pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 chipper |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Everything You Want - Vertical Horizon |
] |
Pool tourney in half an hour. Can't wait. If I win, I get my own pool cue. yay.
I am cold, we have like a 6 degree wind chill, no joking involved. It snowed yesterday for a bit, and we're supposed to get a good amount on the weekend.
Le sigh. Welcome to The Burg.
|
|
|
[27 Nov 2004|11:45pm] |
alexander is the #141 most common male name. 0.132% of men in the US are named alexander. Around 161700 US men are named alexander! source namestatistics.com
Tome is the #18897 most common last name. 0.0005% of last names in the US are Tome. Around 1250 US last names are Tome! source namestatistics.com
God Damn, if there are only 1250 Tomes in the US, then how come another one entered the middle school when I left, and his first name happened to be Alex?
Creepeh....
|
|
|
[26 Nov 2004|09:23pm] |
You Are the Individualist |
4
You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.
You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.
You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.
Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.
|
|
|
| Megus Alexandrus |
[26 Nov 2004|08:49pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 indescribable |
] |
"The greatest Alexander of them all..."
I just saw Alexander, and I'd have to say it's one of my favorite movies, if not my absolute favorite (I'm sorry Party Monster and Rocky Horror). Never have I seen love prtrayed in such a way as it was in that movie, and never have i felt like crying and throwing my fists into the air and screaming for sheer frustration with fate because of a movie.
Guh, there is just so much in the movie that I can't even begin to explain it! Not that I should, since that would spoil it.
Oh, that I had love as Alexander did. His dream... his glory... his perseverance... to be loved by virtually all the known world--it's dizzying.
I have no more words to describe it. See it, and we shall discuss it at length. I promise.
"He should have died in Asia, but he did not... but that is why we call him Megus Alexandrus...
The greatest Alexander of them all..."
|
|
| yay (kinda) |
[25 Nov 2004|06:38pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 lethargic |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
My Big, Fat, Greek Wedding dialogue in the next room. |
] |
so, yes, I am home for (count 'em!) SIX DAYS!! woohah!
Happy Thanksgiving! I'm thankful for my friends and I'm thankful that college is going as well as it is.
Now that that's done, I have to say that I am incredibly full and my stomach aches a small wee bit. Do NOT play hackey sack with a full stomach. Bad Mojo. Voodoo Ka-Ka Voodoo Ka-Ka Wee Wee!
Ok, that last bit wasn't funny unless you've seen a certain flash video that's on some site that I saw a while ago and can't remember any of it except those (sorta) words.
So, yes...
I hung out yesterday with adrienne and meredith and kate, daniel, chris, the amys, jen, one other person... can't remember who... that's a bad sign.
Today I had thanksgiving with my family, which was good fun, we played "Oh, Shit!" which is a really fun, rummy-like game that can go on for hours, and I had to endure the whole damn thing without a single ciggie. Had me a little craving after that, we played for 4 hours, that happens when 9 people play at once. So, afterwards I got to have a cigarette with my great grandmother, my uncle's girlfriend, and another of my uncles. My mother kept smacking me over the head for smoking. Child abuse. help. save me. :)
But, yes, the night wasn't as much fun towards the end of the night, because we all sat down to watch Survivor, and all most of my (present) family could do was make fun of the people on the show. And then, there are two lesbians on the show, and everyone got to have a short visit with their loved ones, and they got to see their girlfriends. My uncle's girlfriend says, "if they kiss each other, I'll die."
...what?
and then my uncle looks at the screen and says, "What, are they dykes?"
...
Anonymous voice (I didn't see who said it):
"Gay people are taking over the world, Jesus!"
I was dumbfounded. How could MY family be saying these things? And right in front of me!
Sometimes I just want to walk up to them and grab them shirt and scream, "THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT! THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH ME! JUST FUCKING ACCEPT IT!"
But, I'm just gonna leave it alone now. I can't change them, I'll just try to make it as frictionless as possible.
Anyway, I have no plans for friday during the day, who's up for a movie or something?
Call me. 301.788.4537
--Me
|
|
|
[14 Nov 2004|01:03am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 overcome |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Yolanda Adams - I Believe |
] |
I had a small breakdown today in the shower. I felt complete overpowered by the results of this year's election. I know this is a late reaction, but it just trully became clear to me. I feel like I've lost something vital to my existence.
And I have. I have lost the acceptance of my country. I can foresee Bush's administration wreaking havoc on the gay community. Already Ohio has amended its state Constitution to ban gay marriage.
Some would say that there's nothing to worry about--that there's no way the U.S. Constitution could be amended to constrict rights! Bullshit, I am perfectly certain there are enough justices that will suavely ignore that minor technicality.
Some would also say, "Oh, he only has four years in office..."
Are you serious? How can I be expected to voluntarily live in a country where the very driving force which is supposed to be protecting me is in fact working against my basic rights? No person should endure that for a day!
And I realized that I am expected by many to endure that. And that struck like a lead weight in my gut, gouching and twisting in my intestines and seeping slow poison into my veins. I felt helpless in the most absolute way. I felt like this is too big, and I have no idea where to start to try and make things better.
And then I realized, my own pride in myself is the first step to victory. The fact that I can maintain that means that I still have hope of change. All things start within yourself and only can spread from there.
So, I will still fight, in my own small way. I will not be trodden over silently. My rage will echo through the vaults of hell before I am quietly subjugated and suppressed.
This is MY revolution, and I believe it's right on time.
|
|
|
[13 Nov 2004|02:44pm] |
You Are From Venus |
You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious.
A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host.
You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all.
Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform.
Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.
|
You Are a Pundit Blogger! |
Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read.
Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few. |
You Are a "Don't Tread On Me" Libertarian |
You distrust the government, are fiercely independent, and don't belong in either party.
Religion and politics should never mix, in your opinion... and you feel opressed by both.
You don't want the government to cramp your self made style. Or anyone else's for that matter.
You're proud to say that you're pro-choice on absolutely everything!
|
|
|
| The Cho Revolution |
[09 Nov 2004|07:09pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 moved to action |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Sunrays and Saturdays - Vertical Horizon |
] |
If you are a woman, If you are a person of color, If you are gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, if you are a person of size, if you are a person of intelligence, a person of integrity, then you are considered a minority. And it's going to be really hard to find messages of self-love and support anywhere, especially women's and gay men's culture. It's all about how you have to look and act a certain way or you're worthless. You know when you look in the mirror and you think, guh, I'm so ugly, I'm so old. don't you know, that's not your authentic self, but that is billions upon billions of dollars of advertising, magazines, movies, billboards, all geared to make you feel shitty about yourself so you'll go spend your hard-earned money at the mall to buy turn around cream that doesn't turn around shit.
If you don't have self-esteem, you hesitate to do anything in your life. You will hesitate to go for the job you really wanna go for. You will hesitate to look for a raise. You will hesitate to call yourself an American. You will hesitate to report a rape. you will hesitate when you are discriminated against because of your race, your sexuality, your size, your gender. You will hesitate to vote. You will hesitate to dream.
For us to have self-esteem is trully and act of revolution. And our Revolution is long overdue.
Margaret Cho is my hero.
|
|
| P.P.S. |
[08 Nov 2004|02:37pm] |
I have actually committed myself to a regular work out schedule. oh my god. Every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, I go down to the apartments' gym and work out for an hour before Art Appreciation.
Gotta tighten up these abs and pecs, yo. =P
Huzzah, and I'm off to do things. Actually, I'm gonna work out, because I missed it today, I had to finish some work.
|
|
| Sweet Jesus, I'm updating! |
[08 Nov 2004|02:02pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
chipper |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
the tap-tap-tap of the computer lab keys. |
] |
Yes, I know, it's a shock.
So, I went to New York this weekend, and I was distraught that I had to leave. Seriously, I almost cried in Central Park.
We left at 3 in the morning to bus up there, and got there about 9. We were dropped off at Macy's and told to be back there at 9 pm. Awesome, 12 hours to do as I please. Me, Suzzy, Chris, and Tin, ran around all over the Times Square, 5th Avenue, Central Park, Macy's area. We went shopping in Saks 5th Avenue, Kenneth Cole, Versace, Cartier, and Gucci. I only actually bought stuff in Saks: a pair of jeans and cologne. It was hellaciously expensive--I spent well over 200 dollars, but I get a pair of jeans free. Also, I bought some accessories at H&M, which was only about 20 bucks. Guh, my wallet hurts from this weekend.
I am seriously, and irreversibly addicted to New York now. I must live there. There are no ifs, ands or buts. I will. The first step is getting into NYU for my master's work. If that doesn't happen (and it will), I shall become desperate, and do something drastic.
Adam: I meant to call you, see if you wanted to meet for coffee or something, but I was so caught up in the experience that I completely forgot. Sorry! :) Maybe next time.
School's going ok. I miss the home crew, but I've made enough good friends to make it bearable, and usually fun.
So, toodles, au revior, shalom, g'day, and goodbye!
Oh, P.S. It's cold as balls, we predict snow this weekend.
brrrr....
Oh, to be living in New York... how I pine for thee.
|
|
| The schedule. |
[27 Aug 2004|02:59pm] |
First off, I've decided to double major. I'll be Art & Philosophy plus the GEP credits which will be pretty much all of my required 120 credits. I think I'm gonna do summer classes here, too, since I have a 12 month lease. Also I've been enrolled in the Honors Program. yay. Ok, so here we go.
M = Monday
T = Tuesday
W = Wednesday
R = Thursday
F = Friday
Honors Freshmen Composition - MWF - 10:00-10:50
2D Design - TR - 10:00-11:40
Art Appreciation - MWF - 1:00-1:50
Contemporary Ethical Problems - TR - 3:30-4:50
Intro to Higher Education - W - 3:00-3:50
Honors Intro to Sociology - W - 5:00-7:30
that's 16 credits, and I'm taking on 19 next semester. And I'm done. TTYL peeps!
|
|
| Moved In! |
[25 Aug 2004|04:37pm] |
So, I moved in yesterday and met two of my new room mates. Jeremy's pretty cool--my favorite so far--and Chris is nice: hospitable and sweet, but woefully misguided, imho. He's totally pro-America, gun-totin', army-crawlin' redneck material. Le sigh...
Made a bunch of cool friends, though! Best friend so far is Jen, a fellow Art Major and a sophomore. She's CA for the floor below me. Also, there's Justin, Jeanie, Andy, New York, Tiffany, Becka, Jeanine, and a a bunch others that I can't remember but should.
I'll take pictures and post them later when the Network in my computer is actually functioning. Right now I'm on the shared computers downstairs just to be able to update this and talk to a few of my friends on AIM.
I'm lazy, so I don't really want to type anymore in here. hah.
Time to read my friend's page.
|
|
|
[24 Aug 2004|12:40am] |
oh my jesus, but Paul Hamm is officially one of the sexiest people in the world... He's so cuddly, and that flexibilit's gotta come in handy for *something"....
guh.... I want him.
|
|
| what is there to discuss? |
[22 Aug 2004|08:36pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
crappy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Bloody Valentine - Good Charlotte |
] |
so, my mom told my dad that I had come out to her. He wanted to "discuss" it at dinner tonight. I told him I didn't think anything had to be discussed. Did we have to discuss it when he thought I was straight? no. Now he feels "left out." Fuck you, little baby. When you alienate yourself from the family unit, these things happen. You turn around, things are changed, and you get left behind. Deal with it. You don't need to be updated on my life, anyway. I don't plan on associating with you whenever possible.
|
|
|
[22 Aug 2004|07:24pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
good |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
As I Watch The Sun Fuck The Ocean - Boy Hits Car |
] |
So, day after tomorrow I am moving out. I'm kind of nervous, but much more excited.
Also, it seems I may not be the only one moving out. My mother told me today that her and my father will probably get a divorce. I had much the same reaction that she had when I told her I was gay--that being, "I was wonderig when you were going to tell me." I'm relieved that I know it for sure now, though. Things will be much easier for them and me if they are apart.
God, I need to finish packing...
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
dureku's journal